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owh man im dead ass tired today..will post on the singapore trip tomorrow..good nitez

fucked up feelings

right now im on ma bed in this lil hotel in singapore..im feelin so fucked up right now when i got her on ma mind..ive been thinking why do i always turn back to my old ways?..wer i was there lovin this one person whole heartedly and yet she broke my heart..and i gotta make a confession here i did cheat on her!and im not gonne prove ma self it wasn't soo much for a cheating...wrong is WRONG!...so i sat back thinking bout this heartless,ugly piece of crap,big arms ,fat thighs wannabe cool idiot girl..that i used to like about 2 years ago...yet all i was looking for was for a lil piece of mind to support my heartache..i said that afta this disaster theres no way im loving a woman again..i threw back my revenge on them..the more i took the more i got hurt..and i always believe that one day ill get a piece of harmony for the crap ive been trough..theres moments wer i would be in a big crowd of my friends and felt like the loneliest person on this planet..well still i passed trough the hardship..now my life is cool again..i get wat i want..but i dont really get wat ive been yearning for..owh ya i saw her on new year..and i had nothing but LOVE when i looked into the eye of ma enemy..yeah!she is my enemy..and i still visit her blog once in a while reading all the memories and lying to maself that im not sad...and im a MAN!!and i wont feel much of the sadness..and i tell u what..be true to urself cuz no one else will be..guess wat!?ive got male friends asking me how am i good in getting girls and asks for my advice...i do give em the tips..and at the end of the conversation i say that ''you..a man,should neva ever give all uve got''..thats when shit turns to u..cuz ive been here going trough my days all alone thinking what a world for me to live in...but somehow ive made..YEAH!im proud of myself..but when its all said and done..ive got a question to god..DO LOVE REALLY EXIST?!!!!!!...owh ya and she used to say aww ''its not about the years its about the feeling we have now''..let me tell yall sumthing...how foolish can u be to trade all of the good memories to the few bad things that have happened to u in ur life....why do i want to be a fake as motherfucker tell her im done when im not?...cuz i gotta show the world im man enough to say that?!!...hahaha...and she won the game cuz she got me trough pain till now..i will bet on this that..evry single time she falls..its me that she'll think of..cuz i was pure..nt from the start but at aleast from the half of the first chapter....i dont want it to sound logical btw...and another dumb thing i did was to make her hate me more by telling her how i was cheating on her with other girls when i was with her...TO MAKE HER feel good that she took the right path outta my life..hero it seems!!!...and yeah let me tell u the truth.. she's the prettiest woman ive ever seen in my entire life..none of them even got close to her by few thousand kilometres...and she got the eyes and the smile of the angel that u can neva imagine...i dont care if shes there for me as long as im there for her..i guess my emoness stops here..i gtg sleep..good nite people,and thx for sparing a lil time for u to read my UGLY LOVE story book..

made it to all class

first thing first,i made it to all the classes i had this week,,marketing principle is fucked up boring but the teacher is aite,ok la..but i was looking at her as if she was chanting to me in a language that i couldnt understand...then was kinda stressed had to get some smoke to get outta the stress zone..finally made it trough and im here in curve with ma homeboyz afta swallowing in the hot dogs..hmm..sedap!!!...i heard the exam results will be out tomorrow..let see wat im gettin since i made it 3.5 gpa for de last sem..hehe..the subjects i love this sem is visual comm,pr,& fundamental photography..all peepz i gtg now...m rushin to sumwer..haha..see yall.

first day marketing class!!

today was good...late for class about an hour but the teacher was good and relax with me (maybe for now)..slept at 5.am..this wat happens,cuz mr.ram belungu came over to my place..watched the movie the book of eli..owh ya went to curve yesterday to eat hot dogs..quite nice and together with the ice-cream...came back home flat on the bed till ram came ova to my place in damansara...afta clas at 10a.m today went back to ma room and got flat again..mr.haikal n ram was chattin sumthin till they slept too..a i am now here hanging out at ma college's poolside..nice wind btw..haha...aowh ya bout my marketing class...damn it sucks bigtime..boring giler sial!!!..alot of reading and listening...zzz...LMFAO..fuck i couldnt make it..too broke..nice feeling..uhh baby!!..anyway im going with ram to sum cooking programme for the poor..at least ill feel good about today..i mean more than happy for not finishing my dad's money..haha..allrite i gotta go now..hittin bangsar then headin back homee...remember violence solves nothing!!!peace!!

a good day today..too early for class..kinda fucked up tooo..haha..but ive got ma subject registration done..got at about 10.30 a.m..sat around abit..brushed my teeth..LOL..to in detail ryte..haha...got ma topman jeans on and the red man united t-shirt..im not mu supporter cuz im arsenal's ..i had to wear cuz i got no other t-shirts to wear..ok moving on..went to startbuck grabbed that fucked up tasting coffee..i swear mamak's coffee tastes better...remil's favorite ''tongkat ali'' i wonder wt he do afta that ;)..high five bitches!!!!...haha..called up mr.haikal the slow man to come pick me up..and there he was,3 hrs early..ransom to ma karma..then got in the car sent ram back to his college..printed few papers for college and i swear the printing shop's owner is a fucking dog!!!...cuz they made it so long to get it printed...and went back to college by 3.30..and guess wat..no one is in the class..why???????...cuz the class is at 5p.m...lol...anyone in my class will pass out if they know that haikal and me r early for class..like seriously..k la the printing shop owner is a good man actually...lol..and here i am sitting in boredom..ok i gtg.. sum one is offering me free cigarette..bye bye bitches!!!...wait it dont leave yet..go listen to ''imagine''john lennon-tucson tribute..and seriously violence solves nothin..get it into ur brains..peace!!one love

ahhh man!!!how do i start cuz i cant really remember..ok ill start by sumthin i said after clubbing which was reminded to me by ms.vinitha valerie vincent..haha..goes sumthin like this..vinitha was standin by the pavement with her friend Reka and their shoulder clashed with a passer by..and i was so fuckin dumb to say this..''come this side,they bang u then we have to bang them''...haha..got it?..no?..fuck it...ok actually had kinda low cash yest..all we had was about only 50 in their wallet and mine...we made up our mind to meet MR.bison...uhh hes dangerous..but for 7.50 aint that bad ryte?...after drinkin the can down we headed to the club (reggae bar)...owh ya i forgot, Sathya couldnt finish his so justin (the 'CROWD') drank sum cuz he has the PLASTIC bag u see...haha...and the sathya confessed today that afta justin helped em to drink sum outta of it..he still couldnt finish it and 'KEPT' safely by the road side..haha..owh ya and mr.belungu a.k.a Ram geddon...did the artistic move by vomitting out some of the MR.BISON...i told u he was bad...Sathya's new name is picasso cuz he does this abstract art thingy when he pours out the colours of india and decorates the road..haha...let i talk about in the club now..went infront of reggae bar and bam!! wats that a funeral service?!!the question in my mind...then holla-ed them into the club to put on some dance and booze..thanks vinie for the drink!!give me five!!..haha..and i was thinkin why were in the club listening to songs and dancing in our group...like, we can do this at home ryte?...so we made move to the dance floor..there goes the 'one love song' and guess wat i forgot the lyrics...pissing of isn't it?...forgetting the lyrics of ur favorite song...and GOD! that was the last call at the bar...ok then we headed out...wanted to treat the SINGAPOREANS some booze but sadly they had to go back...but remember macha doesnt give up when he makes up his mind to drink alco alco!!...then we went in separate way..aww!!how sad..haha..mr.muscle the ''Remil Singam''...said lets go eat and i said..no bobby its drinking time...then headed to brickfields to get some booze outta kk..bought 3 long cans of super skol...went bangkong ...and look!!!!we said to each other...theres a couple..and remil said confidently..'u see friends theyre gonne make a move'and bam!they did it!..haha..then we drank up the cans..was fuckin high sky...i refused to go back home!!!...somehow macha made me do it!!!ahhhh!!!fuck la!!!i said...still they continued like they dint hear me...then we made our way back 2 B.A..owh damn on the way back!!mr.picasso dis his art thrice on the road...damn!! kl looks pretty now...haha..then we had makan n a li chat..and we headed back home..and it was too late for justin to send me back cuz it was already 7.30 a.m..wtf nigga!!!...haha..i crashed in ram's place..had a good night sleep..and here i am..in the restaurant afta eatin ma indo mee..allritee..its all for now..see u once again!!!peace!!

well...i juz came bac from church..good day,had trouble waking up for church at first but now its all worth it u know..at last made it there..the mass was quite boring at first actually,guess who i met miss kimberley han su lin...i was like who the heck is this woman?and suddenly came to ma conscious that she was 'she'..haha..funny afta years seein her...all grown to adulthood..afta that was contemplating on leaving the church fast cuz i saw ma brother there cuz i dint go back this week.cuz daddy is mad at me cuz i over used the rent money...LOL..people make mistakes...and i swear i wont repeat it...people!! dont try this in ur life ''rent over using''haha...ow yeah last night was kinda epic when justin and i had no money to go out to meet remil n friends,and yes were the legends..we went to the bank to check into ma bank account...and guess wat,ma father dint bank in which showed me the balance of rm15...wowowo...im rich bitch!!!..lol..why dint he bank in?..remember my ''rent over using''...thats why..but atleast i free from the stress now figuring out how to save back..quite a big sum u noe.....owh ya after we had nth to cash outta the ATM..we continued our journey back to a very special place...''home''..so special...lol...this wat machas do when theyre broke..head back home nigga!!!!...afta that had that few puffa outta the mr.dun-bukit..went to sleep..zzz..at about 4a.m...and today i gotta get ready for college...owh ya i supposed to talk bout kim..hahaha..she used to be this big size,bigger than me monster..haha..serious i was scared of her..we was in the same catechism class since 7 years old...and same school from form to 2(mid of it)...thats all la..owh ya now shes hot!!..woot woot..and next movin on..lookin forward to a great weekday without skipping class and gym..haha..alrite till we meet again..bye bye:)

there they are my new shows which i bought for christmas..nice aint it?!...actually i dont really enjoy the attention i get from these shoe but kinda stylish tho...i dont knw y i keep talking bout ma shoes...let me get to ma today's life...woke up about 2.pm..damn that late for a young man..then got to ma aunt's place in cheras to get sumthin for justin's mum..was in there and blastin the LMFAO songs..and boom there goes..''the public stunt''...had few machas lookin at us like...wtf!!..then we went back home.and guess wat.we only had 4 bucks and spent 2 on the can drink..damn then we had 2 buck when the toll gon cost us rm2.20...so wat we had to do take the free way and also the long way...wohooo..little roadtrip back home...and i miss my little baby..shes gorgeous aint she?..haha...i miss her alot..allrite i gotta go get ready...goin for a house party just to eat the good food..LOL..see ya!!

well.i dont know wer to start so ill start bout my favorite shoe...>>>>here look..thats my favorite..they're 3 years old already...hmmm..look at the lace its old as the shoe.. wat else i can say...owh yeah i took this photo when i was on the way to subang in ma cuzzy's car with ma canon 550d with the 50mm lens...no bad ryte?..i know2..hmm life is being very good to me lately...sometimes ada la sikit2 susah..and i just came back from bangsar had sum real man talk with ma homeboyz...smoke like 2 box outta the dunhill...evrything was going quite fine till remil had to drop the stell chair which made a whole lotta noise that made the whole shop to turn back n look at us..and i was like YEAH!YEAH!...we are famous now...look at us perform how we pick the chair back up...but it was a really good nite..and my mind suddenly paused for a moment cuz i was quite tired doin nth..and was anticipating for good sleep at justin's place...and now here i am..LOL..i guess thats all for now...so stay tune for the next episode..goodnite ladies n gentlemen